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    SecretNanDiary  77, Female, United Kingdom - 4 entries
08
Oct 2015
5:17 PM BST
   

I've had a quiet day today. I hadn't planned to do anything so it wasn't a surprise.

So that I didn't sit down all day on the computer and just play, I decided to set my timer so that every 20 minutes it would go off and I would then get up and do something active for a few minutes. �It's a great way of getting the mundane chores done when feeling lazy.

I sorted out some of the junk I had stored in the cupboard on the landing. �There is less than I thought there was. I'll finish it off another time.

I think I'm finally coming to the end of all the sorting out and throwing away. �I've still got the cupboard on the wall in my bedroom to sort out, and I must also make a start soon on clearing out the sideboard. Of course the sideboard has all the photographs stored in it, which are going to take me a long time to go through.

Even after all this clearing out and throwing away I don't seem to be getting any nearer being minimalistic.

Louie and I also took a stroll along the high street after lunch. �It was quite warm for October. �I remembered to take my shopping bag. �It's the first time I've been to the shops since the carrier bag charge came in three days ago.

I walked virtually the whole length of the town and back but found nothing I wanted. �So it was into the Co-op for a couple of bits and then home.

I've been good and stuck to the 1000 calories that I alocated myself today. �I also worked out that 20% of my daily calories are taken up with my hot drinks. I must admit that was a bit of a shock. I have started to cut those down though. Today I have made sure that I have only had 5 cups of tea, one coffee, and one drinking chocolate. I have also managed to drink 1� litres of water. �If only I could keep this up every day for a few weeks, I would soon lose these extra pounds.

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    Empty  50, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
10
Nov 2015
5:37 PM MST
   

Today was like every other. I went to work feeling alone... wishing someone loved me. Wishing I wasn't so broken. I understand than no one wants to deal with me. As the day progressed...one of my coworkers came up and tried to get me to "make out" with him. I feel so dirty. I don't want to be touched like that. I want to be loved. I always push him away... but, it is kinda nice to be touched by another person. Lately, my mind has been really messed up. I feel overwhelmed by emptiness. .. I want to get out.. to feel better...I just can't seem to do it. My head hurts so bad mentally and physically.... I know I need to love myself, but i don't feel lovable...
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    Empty  50, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
12
Nov 2015
7:40 PM MST
   

Yesterday was a really bad day for me. I was at work, and i started crying uncontrollably. My boss came to me and told me I needed to quit crying at work. So, I said I needed to go home. My supervisor said I could leave, but handed me a flier for an employee assistance program. I went home, and called the number. They said they would call me back with a counselling appointment. I waited a little bit... then decided to take the pills.
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    Empty  50, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
14
Nov 2015
4:35 PM MST
   

Today is beautiful. It's just the right temperature... slight breeze. I hear the neighbors going out on their motorcycle. I think of the motorcycle we bought... I really believed we go places together. Riding around with you made me so happy.I just want someone to care about me. That's all I have ever wanted... he says I live in a fantasy world... maybe I do. I just want other people in my world. I am careful not to smother them with attention. .. I try to make them laugh and feel comfortable... but, they never stay. I try not to show my sadness... my insecurities. .. my emptiness. ..I offer to help... I just want to be a part of something... I want a family. I want friends. When I think back... it has been like this most of my life. I don't understand why. I don't know how to live... and i am not good enough to die... I need help... but, nobody cares
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    rosaliamello  34, Female, Nebraska, USA - First entry!
16
Nov 2015
1:18 AM EDT
   

Framework of Convention Collective Metallurgie

The leading level of negotiations is the sector or branch. Besides the major branch agreements there are also numerous collective agreements with individual firms. Collective agreements can be declared generally by binding the associated governments. In case the agreement is regional the convention collective metallurgie cadre is done with the local government.

The significance of convention collective metallurgie cadre agreements has increased considerably in recent years. This is a major reason for the higher proportion of workers who are covered by collective agreements.

The convention collective metallurgie cadre mainly can be announced and frame worked by the concerning government. It is generally the request of the negotiating partners and then applied automatically by all the companies in the sector or that particular region. Mostly the convention collective metallurgie cadre is not widespread in the industrial sector. There is no minimum wage nationally. However the convention collective metallurgie cadre enables the authority to introduce the binding of branch wide minimum wages. Where the wages dumping was unmistakably occurring without the generally binding under convention collective metallurgie cadre.

While in Switzerland in the year 2011 the Swiss Federation of trade union obtained around 112000 signatures for people's initiative to introduce a national minimum wage and bind it under the convention collective metallurgie cadre.

As far as their contents are concerned convention collective metallurgie cadre it includes points such as:-

Wages.
Working conditions.
Fund regulations.
Training social funds.
Work timings.
Financial participations.
Participations right.
Conflicts resolution and so on.

There is a wide range of options for increasing real wages, which can also be combined in the convention collective metallurgie cadre. This includes in general the percentage or the amount related for all employees in accordance with wage scales which is distributed individually in the enterprise.Read full pdf here.

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    Leila  57, Female, Oregon, USA - 2 entries
16
Nov 2015
8:40 PM PDT
   

Why I Chose Journal.com

I started keeping a journal in high school as a class requirement and liked it so much I have continued it almost daily since then. I have come to veiw writting as a friend...a place to go when there is nowhere else to go...a place where I can make my case when in the real world I am only blown off.� Sometimes I have reread�entries and have been surprized and impressed.��I've had an astrologer tell me I'm�passionate and intellegent, but I live inside my head.� That is definately the truth and it's painfull.� I was told I had no fire signs on my chart and therefore it was my lifes work to develope that...to�not just think and feel but to act on my ideas and passions and materialize them, to share them with the rest of the world.� I feel like I've been trying�to do that my whole life and�haven't figured out how.� I've�thought I do pretty good at writting and wished I could get published.� I've heard of blogs and considered starting a blog...but I wasn't sure what kind of blog.� That is the reason I chose this journaling sight...I can post a public journal and see where it goes.�
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    Empty  50, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
16
Nov 2015
11:05 PM MST
   

Today is a little better. "He" came over this morning for a little bit. When he holds me, I feel safe... cared for... like I have a place. But, I know in my heart it is not real... and he will leave again.... I am not really anything to him.
I have made a decision to start taking better care of myself again. There is no reason why I do not go to the gym anymorw. There is also no good reason that my diet looks the same as a teenagers. I know what I need to do... and i know how to do it. I am the only person that can change where I am.
I met an old friend for dinner. She needed the conversation as much as I did. I sometimes forget that people enjoy my company.... especially when I don't want to be around myself.
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    Empty  50, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
17
Nov 2015
7:58 PM MST
   

Trying to keep busy... pushing the empty feelings back. No phone calls.... no texts.... just alone... I rode my bicycle to the gym. I did not talk to anyone there, but i enjoyed knowing that people were around. It has been a while since I have taken care of myself. .. I want to feel better... I fixed some food... and ate it, by myself. I still feel guilty about eating alone... my brain tells me that nobody will love me because I am fat. I should be ashamed of myself for eating so much. If i had more self control, maybe people would want to be around me. I try to tell myself that I need to eat, that being healthy will help me feel better. It seems to be a constant battle. When I look in the mirror... I don't like that woman. I am starting to see my mother's features in myself. That terrifies me. She is a very mean and hateful person. I am afraid I am going to be like her. Back to night shifts this week. Maybe some sleep deprivation will help me clear my mind.
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    Empty  50, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
18
Nov 2015
11:01 AM MST
   

I think i am getting better... and BAM! Something else happens. Being alone is hard for me... I don't want to do it. I just want a friend. ... anybody.... �but, now I am broken again. I can't stop crying... I don't want to live or die.. I just want to feel different �..I was looking forward to my psychiatrist appointment this morning... I got there... and waited... and waited. The receptionist called me up and said he was going to have to reschedule. .. I just cried... � she says "sorry "....
Sorry? That's it. � � I am sorry too. .. ��
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    Empty  50, Female, Arizona, USA - 8 entries
21
Nov 2015
11:30 AM MST
   

Again. He spends time with me... makes me feel special... always wanting sex. With promises of attention later. I know it's a lie. But, again I believe him. I want his attention so badly. I want him to care about me. I give in, as I always do. I want to be good enough. He meets me for breakfast. To break up with me again... it's like an additional torture. To keep telling me how it is not ever going to work.... making me feel bad about caring for him. ...making me feel stupid.. inadequate. .. he says he knows he is a negative part of my life. He is. He hurts me so much. And I keep letting him. I don't know why. I go home alone...I am angry.. Mostly at myself. He says I push people away. I am afraid. I can't handle being hurt anymore. I just want someone to hold me. I just want someone to love me...
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